It’s 3am and im on supermilk (ignore the punctuation, grammar, capital letters; its 3am i could care less, plus im typing in the dark save for my laptop natural screen lighting which does little to eleviate the blindness i am currently subjected to while i am trying to type properly without actually seeing the keys im touching. thankgoodness i can vaguely or well touch type although not entirely properly)
I went to sleep at like 1am but as i got to bed i started thinking a range of shit that more or less sounds like a re-evaluation of my life but it actually wasnt; it was only looking back at the things ive done and how i regret it now. That just sucks -___- and so i rolled around in bed for what seemed like a billion hours and i still couldnt sleep so i got up and went toilet and went on the computer, might as well do soemthing instead of wasting about 2 hours or so trying to sleep when i couldn’t. Reminds me of the time my parents were still in China and HK. I went a tiny bit insomniac during those days for some odd reason literally not sleeping until 6 am in the mornign and then waking up at 9 to do god knows what. Then sleeping pattern reverted back to normal when i came home from the airport after picking up my parents and slept with my sister and her friend on the bed (yes, all together) for a couple of hours. So maybe i should like stay up to wee hours of the morning then sleep for 1 or 2 then wake up again; might make me tired enough to go to sleep earlier instead of the usual 1 or 2 am and my sleeping pattern gets reverted back. You can probably see im particularly lazy at the moment in terms of paragraphing and editing this entry. I can’t be bothered pressing enter to start a new paragraph D: wow this just sounds like a rant xD hopefully my dad doesnt wake up to catch me. I will be returning to bed at 3:30. Hopefully i would be able to sleep by then in not im fucked. i cant seem to find the letter ‘y’ in the dark; i have to keep experimenting with the letters near it in order to get the right one. gosh touch typing fail now my eyes kinda hurt do to the darkness and the screen. should sleep. gonna end entry now before i go blind. love love
p.s trying to find a waterbottle in the dark is a bitch -__- also subjecting my self to badly written fanfiction that is as good as twilight does not do for a good morning paper
I woke up at 2:30 today and now my mum isn’t talking to me. I’m so sad I dont even understand how I could wake up at that time and nto realise it. I swear when I woke up in bed I thought it was 10am. I’m so fucked. That and also I havn;t studied. I went blog hopping around again and found a sefton 07 graduates blog and she wrote this in one of her entries.
“I have this problem where I’m scared to get too close to people because if I did, I’m scared that I’ll end up growing attached to them and needing to rely and depend on them. I hate getting attached and relying and depending on people, because in the end, it’s always me that gets let down. So every time I start getting close to someone, I build a barrier, push them away and try to shut them out of my life. Recently, I’ve been doing that a lot and I’m realising that it’s not healthy. But it’s the way I’ve always been and it’s what I do best.
I think I’m very much like that. To some people, certain people. And I have been let down so many times it becomes somewhat of a routine for me at times. haahah. Let me read back on this blog in 2 years time, and I will see how much I’ve changed. Hopefully not alot, and hopefully I’m still great friends with all of you people <3 I also found this;
To everyone: Stay close with all your friends! These are the people who you spent five days a week with for the past six years – the people who made you laugh until you couldn’t breathe, the people who taught you maths when you couldn’t understand it from the teacher with the weird accent, the people who lined up with you at the canteen everyday, the people who laughed at your lame jokes even if they were never funny, the people who comforted when you cried over shit exam marks. Don’t just throw it all away!
It’s really scary how that would be us in like one year time. Stressing over our HSC, our UAI estimates and our university entrance applications. Sefton has a approx 91% university entrance rate among its students. Hopefully alot of us would be in the 91%. It’s so scary how everything and anything can happen after we graduate, it won’t be as garanteed as it is now; it will be spontaneously diverse in all aspects and so so different; meeting new friends, not seeing the people you’ve seen everyweek for 6 years every again (some of them), everyone living different lives, everyone getting jobs and a new circle of friends. I’m typing like I;m graduating this year. loool. Maybe this is what I need in order for me to advance from yr 10 mode to yr 11 mode. Maybe. IM GONNA TRYY GRRR HEAR MY DETERMINATIONA ND LOOK AT MY FACEEE
very determinedd :@ rawrr
I’m one of the laziest poeple you can meet in your life, don’t follow my crash and burn in HSC example. I’m going to repeat a chant so that I will do actually it. I’m so screwed. gg to me.
I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY , I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STUDY, I WILL STIDY, I WILL STUDY. I WILL I WILL
I actually typed that out rather than copy and paste after writing the first one, so hopefully I will stick to it or im going to flunk my exams. I have a goal to come rank first in Ancient History. I will, I will, I will and this Ancient history exam determines whether we get into extension History or not. IM GOING TO SHOOT THIS EXAM. FUCK YEARH.
ho shiz.
Now onto something else. HSBC now teaches people how to fold origami on the back of their bank receipts. how adorable :O I’ll scan it if im bothered (probably not). I’ll also show you this super adorable bottle i found at woolworths – PomWonderful <3 Its soo cute.
@Karen: ahha Is that maths you are doing in the background? D: It looks like burnt patches to me >_< Did the ink on the paper go blotchy because of the contacts? AHAHAH nice to see you having fun studying
currently in love with this video its so adorable in so many ways The song, the dancing, the oddity of it all.
Enjoy lads
P.S I love the choreography and the guy int eh suit [the first guy who dances] the phone throwing was awesomeee :O
feeling: sick eyecandy: facebook, for the moment earcandy: tokyo et paris – miyamoto emiri x solita( awesome song. nice fusion of calssical music and rnb [kinda]) / i miss you – Mai Hoshimura
see that above my friends, I;ve used helens, bracket in a bracket (H) Anyways about yesterday, was fun poor thomas couldnt go
Nice meeting new people ben, esther, damion and jimmy. lol
YESTERDAY WAS GARYS PARTY. and I yet again made my self look stupider than i possibly could by getting on the train to granville from auburn in an attempt to get to lidcombe faster. Turns out the train from granville to lidcome went past auburn anyway, the train i wanted to avoid catching. that was stupid. Then the repeat of my Belmore Beach story. No seriously, I still think there is something like that, it goes hand in hand so well man D: like belmore beach, bondi beach D: you get you get? T_T”
Today, I avoided studying by net hopping. again. Wikipedia is my best friend for the holidays =P
wondering if i should go out anymore this holidays I aint feeling it =P sleeping in and internet are luxuries that wil forever exist. YAY.
This guy who was apparently my sister’s friend went to pick my sister up today when i had tutor, around like 12:00 and fuck it was hilarious becuase other than Vi (vivian’s cousin who came over to fix computers) my cousin Louis, no other man (of his age anyways) has stepped through our doors. Sus much? =P And he rode a motocycle so as far as I know, my sister had to get on that certain motocycle to go city. great going sis, even if you say he isnt your bf, I;m still going to say : Good job (Y) *insert fob accent*
Moving on, reading anna’s face book made me wonder, is there something going on with ben (from yesterday) and aimee? ;D im interested, heheh, hor hor hor =P i smell fishy
Anyways in an attempt to study, im going to go STUDY D:
I dont even understand how I could wake up at that time and nto realise it. I swear when I woke up in bed I thought it was 10am. I’m so fucked. That and also I havn;t studied. I went blog hopping around again and found a sefton 07 graduates blog and she wrote this in one of her entries.
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