I don’t think I’ll ever beable to make it as a psychiatrist. I don’t think I’ll ever beable to help anyone ever again. I don’t think I have the right to. I don’t think that I should. I giving up the dream. I’d do something more or less generic to my asian background and make use of myself however I’d be able to, no matter how useless I am. I dig huge ass fucking unescapeable holes for myself, and I think being a psychiatrist would make the people I help dig bigger and more unescapable holes for themselves. goodbye dream 
5:oopm: having asked about 5 people, whether i actually helped or not, I have found my self in the same position I’d been in this morning. Goodbye dream, I think it would do me good to stop diggging holes by doing what i do.
11pm: I’m going to chuck a helen and decide i have no idea what i want to be now. anyways for purpose of enjoyment, enjoy this rather sick but funny video of whack a kitty
