With Love … someone special :)

Keep the ones you love close to you and tell them what they mean to you. Hug them, kiss them and hug them even more. Becuase one day they might no longer be there, becuase they themselves thought they weren’t worth it.

P.S Title:  That is what is written on my me2you bear I got for my birthday from yr 8 I thinks me needs a life instead of insomniac symptom and procrastination habits. + more sleep. Todays birthday party was pretty fail in a funny and weird sort of way I hope Lynda, Shirley and Amanda like their presents becuase you love you guys very very much. I had a talk with a certain someone today and it made me realise how important some people are to us and how we will react if in fact something did happen to them. Will we be angry? will we be sad? will we care when it comes becuase we just expected it somehow? Shit happens but it shouldn’t stop you from caring about the people most important to you, even if you guys aren’t as close before. Though you will never read this, I love you dear and please remember alot of us do too.

We have also established that MJ is the new Princess Diana, and I forgot whatelse we established shit oh yes and Theresa if you are reading this, you got 100% for your history assessment <3 whoop mary’s ass my darlinggg

Not much of a blog entry today, but I have realised that my blog entries are pretty, bland and emo-centric lately :O Wild Swans sucks and Optimus Prime is by bitch (H) I love him (:

Fell in Love without you – Motion City

edit: i was just thinking, Michael Jackson kind of like really did beat it D: beat the bucket, kicked it ewhatever you call it but the irony of his songs and his life is so interesting

Like Totally *insert nod*

Earcandy: Fell in love without you – Motion City (Gossip Girl)
Feeling: tiredddd
Eyecandy: various Tumblrs

Many things in this world are complicated. Like how come people become the people they become? How come we fail to realise how important people are when they are alive and only relish their contribution in their indefinite absence?

Human beings are complicated and we fail to make ourselves simple to understand; simple enough for others to decipher us becuase we like the thrill of the chase – the unfolding and step by step discovery by some one else. I guess it makes us feel like someone cares to try and understand or tries to at least care, even if no one else would. There are so many mysteries in the course of trying to understand why things are and why things arent. How they turned into this pile of junk we call a love/hate/ignorant/ nonexistent friendship, or how something so crappy turned into something even crappier, or how we feel more comfortable to be around strangers than friends we have known for more than half your highschool life. The mysteries of human psychology is ever lastingly complicated

 

and this is what we tell our selves all the time

Ahaha the post is sounding pretty emo yes Dx well it isnt just bear with my own philosophical and non-sensical words of unwisdom. when you find a friend you can truly trust, truly devulge all your deepest darkest secrets in and can truly truly talk to, keep him/her becuase you may never find another person like that ever again, but don’t lose yourself in the process. Becuase when you find this person, chances are you reveal your own vulnerability to him/her and despite them having done nothing, you might self sabotage your relationship becuase of the vulnerability you have. If that made sense at all.

Michael Jackson and Farrah Forsett died yesterday. Such a sad day it is for the world of entertainment. There was so much speculation and arguments about whether he official died or if he was just in a coma. I know for one that me and louise and Amanda had argued about it for abotu 10 minutes whether he died yet, or whether he was in a coma and well at that moment they had not confirmed his death until we found out in biology from Jason Ralston. MJ death completely overshadows Farrah Forsett’s majorly man R.I.P to both of them

I;ve been so tired and lazy lately I can not wait or the holidays to come and take over this crazy school shit for me. In a year’s time we will be in the HSC course and I’m such a lazy bitch that I don’t think I may be able to pass my HSC, like I have said countless times before. So I will finish my Anc hist questions today and some of my maths? deall. Yes.

I wake up like this every morning [seriously]

Waking up to go to school is so hard now a days. I literally wakeup then fall back to sleep again and it sucks becuase I know I have school and what is even worse is that I sleep late and I can not help myself. I swear to god when I hit term 4, I’m going to reduce my intake of msn and fb and random social networks and actually study, not at home, but at the fucking library becuase omfg if I do not get past my 90% ATAR I will fucking die. I probably am capable of getting at least 80% if I tried, but add the consistent loss of marks I am garranteed to get due to exam stress/nervousness etc. This sucks even more just thinking about it.

I was going to type one more paragraph before but yerh I am currently very lazy right now. Goodnight peeps, sorry for the unsubstantial blogpost. I’m slowly losing my mojojojojo but I’ll gain it bac again sooon <3

I’ve got no caption. Because this was just pretty

 

Word of the Day

Inspired by the release of transformers and the current status of the Global Economic Recession, I welcome the new word : hobo-botic/hobotic

 (I dont know what it means, it just sounds cool enough D: but the second one basically sounds like whore-botic so .. yerh D: )

 

” If there’s one thing I learned it’s that there would be no gossip without secrets. You might be brave enough to reveal your secret only to have it used against you. Or someone else’s secret might affect you in unexpected ways. There are some secrets you’re only too happy to keep. Others surface, only to be buried away deeper than they were before. But the most powerful secrets are the truths you thought you could never reveal, but once spoken, change everything.”

 

-Gossip Girl

Annoying/ed. Period.

This picture does nothing to soothe my nerves. In fact I wish I was that fucking paper bird right now; I’ll plunge and take everyone else down with me.

 

 

You know when a dog is supposed to be your companion? the one that will really listen to you? the one that will outlive all your possible boyfriends? Yerh well when they are my dog, apparently they jump you like fucking crazy and tries to bite you.

My dog has been very annoying to me lately. When ever I try to go collect the clothing, he would hover around the clothing and try run away with it, which he hasnt done for a very long time; He only started recently again I have no idea what we are going to do when we take him to the RSPCA the problem is we need to really really really train him because he is going to misbehave so much

I have been immensely annoyed lately about so many things its getting on my nerves about why I still dwell on the little things at all and all this shit that accumulates is bound to do me something bad. Like seriously, should I just avoid things altogether? Yes Maybe I should, its something I’m quite awesome at actually. Another thing I am quite awesome at is assessing my own value in this society and the person I am (probably). I am not the type of person in which the friends I am not close to, and are out of school, will talk to me. Yerh, I actually pretty boring these days infact. D: I just drown on and on about shit I don’t even know about and sleep in the wee hours of early morning. Ever since I got my study, I’ve been staying up; ITS NOT EVEN A STUDY, ITS A FUCKING RECREATIONAL ROOM AWAY FROM THE PRYFUL EYES OF MY PARENTS. no really I should be doing some work but I’m so dead tired

Also let me tell you a story of how I tried to hide my phone under my harddrive and failed.

me : *hid phone under harddrive and go do anc hist. screams rejoice that I did not hear a vibration and shouts*
“LET ME SEE YOU VIBRATE NOW BITCHESSS” (plural because it wouldn’t make sense otherwise)
phone: *vibrate*

Pretty epic actually

btw: ALL ASSESSMENTS ARE OVER FOR ME YIPPER FUCKING DEEE. i think we might need to do the english short story about wild swans, if so im fucked.

anyways let me share this with you. the Matrix Spoof

In Many Many Years

 

I wish I was the balloon right there right now. Stalker much?

 

There isn’t much that I would really want to blog about today. I should stop conquering this blog and urge karen to do some aza aza fighting becuase I’m sure many of you are rather bored with my rants and non-sensical tangeants (aka the blog post previous).

I have been really tired lately actually and well, I don’t really know why o_o ahaha I’ve been out and about more than usual during the school term (I havn’t gone out on the weekends with friends during school term since yr 8/9) so I feel rather high and mighty at the moment becuase my mum lets me go o_o  which is pretty wow considering the other day she yelled at me on my train ride home becuase my sister told her (since no one was picking me up from station) that I would be catching the taxi. Mum called bad and screamed in my ear.

And as you may have realised in my previous post, blogging about just anything that does not relate to me and myself turns into a crash and burn course of putty D: yes, I am that morbidly boring because I am feeling like sleep right now except I can not as I need to do my Ancient History shit. Also I think the spam sms-ing I have been doing over the past few days has gotten me addicted to my phone; I literally check it every 2 minutes then spend 15 seconds thinking “omg I’ve gone obsessive compulsive” another 30 seconds trying to resisting the urge to look at my phone incase i missed something, 30 seconds telling my self to resist, 15 seconds waiting for a vibration before finally checking and finding out there was nothing. I have gone obsessive over this shit. I should just stop answering my phone altogether. This is how it all starts, so now I’m charging my phone OUTSIDE my study room to prevent my self form looking at it any further and its working (y).

I remember there was something I needed to blog about today, but I cannot seem to recall when I literally said “I’m going to blog today” or what I was going to blog about in the first place. So until I remember what I said I will put that on hold.

There is nothing like shitless and brainless spending of money, resources and living things. and on that note I’m going to waste away billions of carbon dioxide black balloons in order to do my anc hist becuase I have no idea what to do at the moment. Theresa I need some help becuase I am super lazy at the moment and super sleepy.

Edit: There are time when one would wish they did not live, did not meet certain people, wish they did certain things and wish they avoided everything all together. This is probably one of those times for myself. Fuck me dead Ancient history tomorrow I wish it was different, so much more different. Get ready for mass avoiding mission