CHANGE.

Armehhhhhhhhhhh. RAWrrRRRr

I am possibly one of the most indecisive person you will ever know. One day I certain of one thing, the next I over think and become ridiculously unsure of my decision. As many of you probably know, my level of commitment is horendously low for a student in her final year of high school; I;m still miraculously stuck in yr 10 mode and cannot find myself moving beyond it. I say and urge myself to do my homework, but I just cant bring myself to do it. My lazyness is probably going to cost me a lot in my future and I don’t seem to care. Like now, its 6:08 and I’m blogging. I need to start getting serious -nerd glasses-

I said I would blog about school on a weekly if not daily basis so in maybe a few month or years time I can look back and remember how stupid and carefree I was at school and remember the good old times. Maybe being too reminscent about school is keeping me from doing my work seriously – feels like I’m staying here forever and yet I’m leaving next year. It still hasn’t sunk in miraculously and this is the reason, I suspect, that will lead to my imminent failure in all my future endeavors. I really should start a n2s: stop thinking about how long you have at school and start thinking about going to school every morning or something. Really, my brain runs on tangents when I’m unoccupied or not into anything – which I havn’t been in a while. Homework does not keep my mind working, in fact it makes my mind go in all different directions. For example one day I was doing maths homework, 3 minutes later some how I had a calculator in my hands calculating the amount of money my parents spent on my formal and informal education from K-Yr 12 excluding school supplies and stationary. Really, for some reason my attention span is just THIS miniscule. Something must be wrong with my under developed brain, seriously.

Anyway about school. The 3 weeks went by pretty fast, tomorrow is Week 3 Thursday – I STILL FEEL LIKE ITS MONDAY WTH. Everything goes by so quickly. I’ve already had about 3 Ext History lessons and I am still completely lost as to what I am supposed to learn, or what I’m supposed to do – Its not Langadinos’ fault, more or less that I just havn’t been trying. Looking at Franchesca who takes the subject extremely seriously, I feel like a fly on the wall who does nothing but eat in class. I don’t read the book, I don’t look at my notes, I don’t take down notes. I’m a dead man, but besides from that, it has been pretty fun lunch time on Tuesdays are like little family-like gatherings of all the ext hist people at the canteen – its rather quiet sometimes but we get to boss the kids in the canteen line around which is so fun =) AND THE FOOD. Ext Hist has turned into a party for us with Nazan bringing Krispy Kreme for the past two week. I feel my arteries clogging up already when I wake up in the morning. Seriously. Having subs in biology is so fun with Thy, Amanda and Van. Most of our lessons has accumulated to heated discussions about a topic i.e Amanda wanting to move out when she graduates and us calling her whitewashed since being asians, we would probably leech off of our parents for quite a while before going anywhere – our reasons being somewhere along the lines of “its our turn to give back to our parents after their sacrifices and all for raising us into who we are” kinda shit. It was to the point that even Mr Chong got into the argument becuase he was eavesdropping on us.

And our labs aren’t ready till next term either. We have beeen nomads for the past few science lesssons and my god is becomes the biggest freaking bludge ever. Every lesson, we seem to have time to gossip about everyone else and play musical chairs D= English has turned serious. And I just remembered, I have homework.CRAP CRAP CRAP.

Anyways I think I blogged enough today. Need to work up the courage now to go and ask Gavin to lower the price of his textbooks depending on the condition its in and goodluck to all the HSC people. I hope the timetable for our HSC isn’t has horrible as it was this year if were were to do the HSC – I would have had an exam on the first wednesday, then friday then second week everyday until thursday, then a monday exam then a thursday one. I would have been fucked given my study habits. Yay me. I’M GONNA FOCUSSSSSSS RAWRRRRRRRRRR

btw: SFX = sound effects, FX = eff-ects. seriously that was just amazing this morning

P.S I have yet to complete any of my “hsc to do list”. I need to. I’LL START BY GOING LIBRARY THIS WEEK. AND ON WEDNESDAY, WHEN I HAVE A FREE 4TH PERIOD. yerh.

Feels good to post since I havn’t in a long time. oh and I saw Karen and Alex today at Lidcombe station. Nice seeing you guys.