I don’t know. Maybe its cause its changing times and all but I’ve been feeling in the background lately. I know I always make fun of being alone and not having friends at uni (LOL I’M SO SCREWED WTF WHY DON’T I HAVE FRIENDS? …. yerh Okay I need to make friends but anyway) BUT lately I really have been feeling pretty lonely and out of communication with everyone literally. Its not about seeing them but sometimes I just don’t feel like I’m connecting on the same level as others or is that passionate about it. Actually when I say it, the problem is that I don’t think I’m passionate about anything anymore. I feel like I’m just gliding along freely but also doing so in solidarity. I think I’m just in this lonely mid-life crisis about everything right now. I’m also feeling like no one wants to talk to me lately. Maybe this problem stems from the fact that I probably don’t try hard enough to talk to people more often when I am almost in this constant state of “not in the mood”. I am like not in the mood for anything. I almost feel as if I use to be able to make likely comments in a conversation or something and now I’m just quite… emotionless to an extent if not really boring. I feel really boring. I don’t talk to people throughout my week. I talk to myself more than I talk to other human beings and I talk to my parents more than I talk to my friends now a days. This is actually quite disastrous to my life. I’m like a floating log that didn’t get caught up in the branches and is on to her impending doom down some crazy waterfall. Okay this is depressing. Back to finding bargain textbooks before I go dirt broke from not working enough hours.

Anyway I don’t really remember what this post was about now… Went shower and came back and kind of lost track derpderp.

EDIT: Back to my previous post, I am a victim of my own social abuse. luls.

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