Was going to blog last night, but decided not to since I didn’t have the comp to myself until like 11:00 and by then I was too lazy to blog, let alone shower (yerh I know I stink ). So I shall blog now, whatever it may be.

AND HAPPY 7/11 DAY YESTERDAY. (y) DID YOU GET A FREE SLURPEE AT 7/11? BECUASE I SURE DID.

and the guys at the counter looked so pissed off they didnt even bother returning the “happy 7/11 day” at the city when James and I walked in. All they did was keep refilling the cups. I don’t think they get enough business  during the weekday, let alone on the weekend.

I’m still stuck on Extension History. I went to the state library to try and do some topic research for ext hist. I did not know there were only two aisles worth of books on history. But wow there were american history, australian history, history of peru, mexico, asian, japan, england, russia and Europe and all these other random countries. I guess it was interesting but I didn’t find much. Not as many topics that I wanted and nothing that really piqued my interest, other than maybe the civial war and Queen Victoria. But nothing that could really last for mroe than 20 hours of research and all. I AM DYING. and I need topics. Me and Theresa have made a kind of pact (more or less we just said it” to get a state ranking for Ext History and try VERY VERY VERY HARD this year.

At the rate my weekends are going, I’m dying. On saturdays I wake up at 7:30 for tutor come home at around 10:30 and sleep till about 4 wake up and feel wasted for about 1 and a half hours before embarking to go tutor at 6 and coming home at 8:30 to laze around and watch movies for the next 5 hours before going to sleep adn waking up on sunday at 2pm. Really. I just waste my weekends doing nothing now and I have a whole list of shit to do or organise my stuff for school and yet I havnt odne anything. I have a small pile of stuff from prelims that i gotta organise out of my table but I havnt really gotten to doing anything about it. So thats quite sad. And I havn’t vacuumed the house in weeks. I think I should becuase there are all these white speckles everywhere and fur and spots. Mum’s gonna be on my case about it again soon.

Lets hope after I post this that I will do my homework. to do list

- maths calculus chapter 6 ex
- english belonging peter.s analysis stuff
- ext hist herodotus notes + topic list
- Anc hist xerxes essay
- chem prac + notes
- bio prac + surfing + notes.

and I still havn;t done any notes. What is wrong with me?

So I got my reports today. I was hoping my mum would be home later but she wasn’t. Of all days it had to be today and so she saw my report but thankgod didn’t open it. I thought she did when I got home and saw the yellow letter on the table – almost gave me a freaking heartattack. So I took it and read it in my room. And now she just rememered “oh Wendy there was a letter for you” and I was like “yerh.. um .. yerh” “is it annother newsletter?” “yerrh, um yerhh” “OH I WANT TO SEE IT” “fuck me.”

I seriously didn;t expect that, she never wants to read the newsletter but then she did so I had to show her my report when I couldnt conjure any newsletter to show her. And her reaction “omg your failing everything, why are you getting so bad.” I think she ignores the fact that my strengths are all in the Histories and arts etc and not the science – all I saw her flip through was science, until she got to English “WTF WHY IS THIS A C I WANT TO KNOW WHY.” “only 22 people got a B so you know” “I DONT CARE I’M TALKING ABOUT YOU”  and so no doubt tonight when my dad gets home I’m as fucked as chicken shit. That was my yearly report experience. I seriously can just see how well me and my parents are going to get along in the next year/ few months till my own HSC. It’s gonna be a warzone, probably.

I’m such a lazy ass.

Armehhhhhhhhhhh. RAWrrRRRr

I am possibly one of the most indecisive person you will ever know. One day I certain of one thing, the next I over think and become ridiculously unsure of my decision. As many of you probably know, my level of commitment is horendously low for a student in her final year of high school; I;m still miraculously stuck in yr 10 mode and cannot find myself moving beyond it. I say and urge myself to do my homework, but I just cant bring myself to do it. My lazyness is probably going to cost me a lot in my future and I don’t seem to care. Like now, its 6:08 and I’m blogging. I need to start getting serious -nerd glasses-

I said I would blog about school on a weekly if not daily basis so in maybe a few month or years time I can look back and remember how stupid and carefree I was at school and remember the good old times. Maybe being too reminscent about school is keeping me from doing my work seriously – feels like I’m staying here forever and yet I’m leaving next year. It still hasn’t sunk in miraculously and this is the reason, I suspect, that will lead to my imminent failure in all my future endeavors. I really should start a n2s: stop thinking about how long you have at school and start thinking about going to school every morning or something. Really, my brain runs on tangents when I’m unoccupied or not into anything – which I havn’t been in a while. Homework does not keep my mind working, in fact it makes my mind go in all different directions. For example one day I was doing maths homework, 3 minutes later some how I had a calculator in my hands calculating the amount of money my parents spent on my formal and informal education from K-Yr 12 excluding school supplies and stationary. Really, for some reason my attention span is just THIS miniscule. Something must be wrong with my under developed brain, seriously.

Anyway about school. The 3 weeks went by pretty fast, tomorrow is Week 3 Thursday – I STILL FEEL LIKE ITS MONDAY WTH. Everything goes by so quickly. I’ve already had about 3 Ext History lessons and I am still completely lost as to what I am supposed to learn, or what I’m supposed to do – Its not Langadinos’ fault, more or less that I just havn’t been trying. Looking at Franchesca who takes the subject extremely seriously, I feel like a fly on the wall who does nothing but eat in class. I don’t read the book, I don’t look at my notes, I don’t take down notes. I’m a dead man, but besides from that, it has been pretty fun lunch time on Tuesdays are like little family-like gatherings of all the ext hist people at the canteen – its rather quiet sometimes but we get to boss the kids in the canteen line around which is so fun =) AND THE FOOD. Ext Hist has turned into a party for us with Nazan bringing Krispy Kreme for the past two week. I feel my arteries clogging up already when I wake up in the morning. Seriously. Having subs in biology is so fun with Thy, Amanda and Van. Most of our lessons has accumulated to heated discussions about a topic i.e Amanda wanting to move out when she graduates and us calling her whitewashed since being asians, we would probably leech off of our parents for quite a while before going anywhere – our reasons being somewhere along the lines of “its our turn to give back to our parents after their sacrifices and all for raising us into who we are” kinda shit. It was to the point that even Mr Chong got into the argument becuase he was eavesdropping on us.

And our labs aren’t ready till next term either. We have beeen nomads for the past few science lesssons and my god is becomes the biggest freaking bludge ever. Every lesson, we seem to have time to gossip about everyone else and play musical chairs D= English has turned serious. And I just remembered, I have homework.CRAP CRAP CRAP.

Anyways I think I blogged enough today. Need to work up the courage now to go and ask Gavin to lower the price of his textbooks depending on the condition its in and goodluck to all the HSC people. I hope the timetable for our HSC isn’t has horrible as it was this year if were were to do the HSC – I would have had an exam on the first wednesday, then friday then second week everyday until thursday, then a monday exam then a thursday one. I would have been fucked given my study habits. Yay me. I’M GONNA FOCUSSSSSSS RAWRRRRRRRRRR

btw: SFX = sound effects, FX = eff-ects. seriously that was just amazing this morning

P.S I have yet to complete any of my “hsc to do list”. I need to. I’LL START BY GOING LIBRARY THIS WEEK. AND ON WEDNESDAY, WHEN I HAVE A FREE 4TH PERIOD. yerh.

Feels good to post since I havn’t in a long time. oh and I saw Karen and Alex today at Lidcombe station. Nice seeing you guys.

This time I plan to stick to this, like I’ve said  in the past a billion time before as well. Oh well

1. Go State Library at least once a month solely to research ext hist.

I’M PUTTING ALL MY FUCKING SKILL INTO THIS FUCKING PROJECT BECUASE ITS THE ONLY SUBEJCT I SEEM TO EXCEL (in comparison to all my others) AT. (okay brb to finish, need to chuck a shit or something – probably from all the raw cake mix I’m known for eating. oops) Anyways, Ext Hist. Yerh, seeing as history is the only subject I do remotely well in, I might as well put more effort into trying to pass the ext part of it as well. I am going to study hard core not just for hist ext though, but also do all my homework and everything there. Or at least try to. I don’t know if I can cope well enough on my own wihtout being ditracted but I love playing with the lockers at the Library. woot. If not the State, then SOME LIBRARY. 

2. Do my assessments on time and not the night before and start them at least one week before.

I find my self saying this to myself time and time again more or less becuase I never stick to it, and I do not think I ever will either. But at least I’m putting it up there. I should give my self a clap for acknowledging this. (:

3. Make yr 12 and everyday of it count.

This is our last year of High school. Last year we get to spend with the people we have spent half our education with. Enjoy it the best you can and maybe it might surprise you.

4. Do my homework when I get home

5. Go online less, unless I really need it. If worse comes to worse, I can always use the Iphone for websurfing. Yerh.

6. SAVE! SAVE! SAVE!

For some reason I find it incredibly hard for myself to do so. I use to be able to, but maybe that was before I started going out and being the teenager with stationary that I am. Yes you could even say that I was a hoarder of Money back in circe Year 6. Now I don’t even have enough for a piece of gum. Literally. SO LEARN TO SAVE SAVE SAVE

7. Get a job this summer holidays - not like I’m doing much anyways

8. COMPLETE THIS LIST.

I quite like this list of personal goals. I hope to stick to them and I fucking better.

Welcombe back to Australia Karen BLOG WHEN YOU HAVE TIME YERH? aahah and Maybe a catch up?

dunno I’m not good at this stuff >_<

STICK TO IT WENDY. STICK TO THIS STUPID THING. STICK.

I hate the hope you give me when I see you. I don;t wnat anything but to remain as civil as we are. I would like that. I don’t miss you, I just miss what was there.

STICK.

9. Try and make more friends, and make back old ones, at the very least on the level of acquintance.

STICK TO IT. RAWR.

So it’s the last night of the Holidays. The night before the big OMFG HSC MOMENT SLAP ME BITCH where we start a supposedly very decisive and new chapter in our mundane highschool life (I like using big words).

I maccas, fried noodles and cheesecake for dinner. My parents werent home yet, and tutor finished at around 8, so my sister came to pick me up. Along the way, we realise we needed to pick Liz up as well, and well throughout the day my sister was practically a chaffeur to everyone in the house hold. So we went to lidcombe, in which i suggested we just eat maccas to kill time while waiting for liz at the station. And so we did. Then parents called to pick them up – at Auburn (lawl). By then, my sister was pretty pissed off.  Pick everyone up got home and realise no one had dinner and My cheesecake was still NOT FULL DONE (WTH MAN SADFACE) but mum ate it and liked it anyway (like it was just missing a little more tim eon the baked side). And then, for the first time in about probably 6 months or so, we played with the wii – DANCEMAT. The unco-ordination of this game in terms of me playing is unbelievable. I trample like an ellephant, and I’m not even playing yet. And so got addicted for an hour or two and then sat down and rested for bit. AND VAN DROPPED OFF SOME MOVIES. YAY. but omg its the end of the holidays, I should have picked it up at the beginning of the week or something instead.

And I’ve decided to spend the rest of my night watching movies.

Yes that will mean another half nighter until maybe 4:00 in the morning if not earlier. Maybe I should be smarter and sleep now, and then wake up early to watch, but there is something about this night time atmosphere that gets me really ticking. I don;t know if its just becuase no one else is awake or like the peace of it all, it just does. Now I sound like a freak. Crap.

Anyways, the holidays are over. I look back and see, that I really didnt accomplish much. Actually, NOTHING AT ALL WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME. I said the books I borrowed, I will read them, look at it now. I’ve only read like what, HALF A BOOK? sorry Jessica and Van, I fail you guys. So lets try and recap my Holidays in this possibly very long post. If I attempt to make it long. I hope I don;t so I can watch one movie then go sleep (choice of the night is Paris, Je’taime. Oh also, after my holidays, I am not allowed on past 11. Oh shit.

I’ve actually come to a very big epiphany, possible conundrum  (see big words and I don’t even know what it means – something along the lines of ‘dilemma’). This is the last holidays before we go all out HSC study mode. This term we are going to get assessments from every subject around the same time and have to endure having these marks counted toward our HSC mark. I am sure to fail pretty much all of them except for History. I’m not even sure about Extension History – there some crazy shit going on there, seriously. But none the less, EVERYTHING COUNTS NOW AND I MUST PUT THIS IN CAPS UNDERLINE AND BOLD BEJESSUSSSS. ZOMG.

Yerh now that I’ve got that over, holidays recap as followed (like I said really boring):

WEEK 1 – Nothing to be said here. I literally did nothing but vegetate and watch fat roll of my stomach. And eat.

WEEK 3 - I at least went out once or twice which made me kind happy except I’m poor. I’M ALWAYS POOR. WHAT’S WRONG WITH ME? 
 Saturday – Was planning to go to the Amazing Race after tutor, but I threw up in the morning so there went half the excitement I was look forward to in the Holidays.
Sunday – Day spent with Louise at the city shopping for Fiona’s present. And Random “when can I tap it like that?” messages to 20 people in our phone book. People actually replied
Monday – SURPRISE! FIRST GROUP OUTING IN FREAKINF DECADES MONTHS YEARS CENTURIESSSSSSSSSSSSS
Tuesday – Inverse Halloweeen. Which I enjoyed alot toward to end with the trying to infiltrate TIPPS and all this KFC food scabbing and walking around with a cape wand and hat all together next to like 6 other guys who look they would sooner want me to get hit by a car than be seen with me. jokes. But Gary almost got hit my one when walking to KFC. We call it Karma for his apparently “taxed” belt. Jessica ditched us to go home and change and never really joined the infiltration plan with me and Bradley. Being the first indian at TIPPs, he got caught out early, and then proceed to snitch me as well by saying “YERH WENDY LETS GO” and the teacher didn;t even pay attention to me when I walked in. IT WAS SO COOL. I COULD HAVE SCABBED A FREE LESSON ON INTERGRATION. AND I HAVNT EVEN LEARNT IT YET. RAR.

And that was basically my holidays. Plus some really stinky farts here and there, and lots of burps and screams and the normal shabang that goes on around my head most of the time.

I HAVN’T BOUGHT MY SCHOOL STUFF YET. I’M DETERMINED TO BUY A NEW CALCULATOR. AND THIS TIME I’M FUCKING LABELLING IT OR STICKING A CHAIN THROUGH ITS FAT BODY TO CHAIN IT TO ME SO I WILL NOT LOSE IT. Big W is so much cheaper than Office Works, but has so less things. Let me list the things I’m going to buy for each subject, just so I know that I feel organised.

Chemistry
        – Binder Folder
        – Spiral book
        – New textbook
Biology
        – Binder Folder
        – Two subject spiral book ( for notes/surfing –> becuase seriously, my yr 11 biology book is literally fucking empty)
        – Textbook
History/History Extension
        - Notebook/2 subject Spiral book (Would I need a second book for history extension?)
Maths
        - Maths Exercise book
        - Calculator
English
        – Spiral book/work book (english really sucks balls – will proceed to use last term’s “4 subject” work book and rip pages out to put in a display folder.
        – Binder Folder

Equipment
- Binder Folder x 3
- 2 subject Spiral Books x 4
- Calculator
- Pacer Led (I lost the new packet somewhere in the Dark last night. Shit)
- Sorting Trays
- Space in my study room to put my shit so that it doesn;t look like the storage room that it actually is (I basically put my study in the storage room) PLAN B: clear space on shelf full of crap.
- New pencil case
- New diary from Morning Glory to start the new HSC course (I will still use my old one though becuase I fucking love it – Its so big and versatile)

And now I will proceed to start a new post, detailing my resolutions for the HSC course that I will hopefully stick to beyond reason and doubt.

Hmm, another long night? Possibly.

I’ve been having really weird cravings for food lately, my gosh. And I’ve realised also that I am in desperate need of a job, before I completely filter my sister and my parents wallets. Like this summer holidays, I don;t care. I am determined to get one. Sitting around all day doing nothing (NOT EVEN WATCHINGG MOVIES OMG. I WILL DO THAT ALL SUNDAY NIGHT SERIOUSLY JUST TO MAKE UP FOR THE DEPRIVATION) and sleeping till way past noon i.e this morning. This is the life, but not during the HSC. I’d rather go work and study than vegetate and study – 6 weeks of nothingness, I doubt I will study ANYWAYS.

I think I’m never ever going to delete my old blogs. I keep them as memories so that in maybe 3 or 4 years time when I;m in uni, working, hobo-ing (and stealing a computer + maccas wi-fi) I can look back and see how high school life was like. Maybe. I’m starting to sound like I’m graduation this term instead of next year.

Off to do more tutor homework. And I promise to either read, watch anime or movies or spend my time MORE WISELY than in front of this shit ass monitor that resembles a drug dealer, and me being the drug addict, is stupid to not leave and pursue other things.

Office works tomorrow and cheesecake. The though of buying new supplies and stationary makes me so happy. This is where my money problems lie. Food and stationary. omg and I don’t even shop – Think about how much money I saved my parents all these years by not shopping.

I’m looking at yr 12 chem homework and I’m getting fucking freaked out.

lawl at spam posts over the past few days. I guess I’m back for a while and like I said, I will try to post about school and my day rather than stupid abstract posts that serve me no use to my memory in the future.

I should really write up the list of things I am going to buy. Its another whole day in the house with only me and my sister. Will probably spend it being lazy shits like we are every week streaming criminal minds and NCIS.

Spent about 1 Hour finishing my cup noodle.

Quite the life I say.

Okay, so reading back on things, I;ve realised I don’t blog much about school and so it got me thinking, the point of me keeping a blog was for me to look back on it and remember shit; whats the point if I dont remember some of the best times I’ve had in school? so I’ve decided, ON A WEEKLY BASIS (hopefully) I will attempt to write about my school week, and may be it will help me keep tracks of things happening

And I wish wordpress would let me change the layout instead of just the header. Gay.

Karen should update more. lawlcakes.

Off to finishing the last bit of my noodles then some tutor homework. Yerh I havn’t finished, I woke up at 2pm this afternoon. Yay for me.

So, when I’m bothered, which is probably tomorrow, I will commence a huge blog post detailing my holidays (one of which contained of mostly winter hibernation and vegetation, if not both at the same time)

Now I;m not even bothered to finish my post.

I love vegetating.

I also have immense cravings for food and those “anonymous” fill out blog quiz things as well.

Should be doing Tutor hw

I havn’t blogged in a long time and it is about 3am at the moment. Me and Louise are a bit too lazy to sleep. About 4 days to go before we start buckling down to being serious shit I have maths tutor homework sitting in front of me but it hasnt been touched in a week, busy day tomorrow, so i dont think ill have time to do it, so I should be doing it now. Been blog hopping through old blogs instead for the past 3 hours (i.e mostly old blogs of the class of O7 to see what yr 11/12 was like for them) I feel rather unsettled at the prospect of advancing into such unknown territory without reading about other peoples experiences and such. Maybe this is why I always spoil endings for myself; I need to know what happens, in order to prepare my emotions better since I’m known for being the freaking waterfall i burst into when the need arises.

Anyways, i hope karen is having a fun time in Hong Kong.

Been doing a lot of thinking, and have decided, i think I am mature enough to act like a decent human being, but I’m also to proud to initiate anything.

And I’ve been thinking, in the period between end of term 4 and NYE lets have a fucking blast with everyone yes? I love that idea  i.e christmas party, some annual sefton tradition shit, all that blood jazz

No, not really.

I’ll be fucked if it happens again. I don;t want it too, or maybe I’m just too scared to. I hope it’s not what I think it is and the distance will make me forget. Fuck my life 10 times over if it is. I have mixed feelings about this.